Journey to 200
I’ve been on a weight-loss journey my entire life. Since as far back as I can remember I was always the heaviest out of all my friends. The lowest number I remember seeing on a scale was 125, and I was likely 11 or 12 at the time. I can’t even imagine what I would look like at 125lbs, and to be fair – I’ll never reach that amount so why bother imagining. I know I’m not meant to be the 326lbs I am today, but I also know my body is not meant to be anything lower than 150/160. I’m just not built that way and I’m cool with it. With all this booty I gotta stay pleasantly plump to keep things in balance, ya know?
It was late July 2017 that I decided I wanted to document my weight-loss journey on my personal Instagram account, and through this spanking new blog. I run a business that lives and thrives through Instagram, so I figured I’d I may as well utilize my favourite social media platform for something personal too. So on August 1st I opened up to my Instagram followers and briefly touched on my struggles with my weight, my desire to get healthy, and I told the world (more like 442 people) how much I weighed.
Women often have an icky and uncomfortable feeling when it comes to telling people how much they weigh no matter how thick or thin they are, and I’m no exception. When I was younger I used to tell my friends how much I weighed, only to have them tease me about it so I stopped. As an adult I hid my weight for fear of being judged once again. Eventually (not sure how long ago) I had an epiphany. I’m obviously over weight. No matter what clothes I wear, how I angle my body for Instagram selfies, or how little I eat in front of people, I can’t hide my true size. Sure, if you’re like me and you have no sense of things like weight, distance, etc. then there’s a chance you might think I weighed less than 326lbs. But telling you how much I actually weigh doesn’t change anything. Do you like me any more or less knowing that I weigh over 300lbs? Nope. Do you find me more or less attractive? Probably not.
I’ve been documenting my journey through Instagram for almost a month now, and the response has been incredible. Knowing that there are people in my Internet circle who are jumping over the same hurdles, or who simply support my journey has been extremely motivating. The continuous likes, comments, emails, and direct messages definitely don’t go unnoticed and are much appreciated.
With this blog space I’ve created for myself, I’ll be uploading a new post every week where I’ll be talking about my progress (or lack thereof), my experiences with being overweight as a child/teenager, body positivity, recipes, my inspirations, and everything in between. If you’re looking for more frequent updates, follow me HERE on Instagram, and stay up to date though my online journal which will be updated every few days.
“Success or excuses? You can only choose one!”